Let's start this journey

There are a lot of reasons people start working out. For me, it was because I vowed never to be the fat girl. And that's exactly what I am. I look at pictures of myself now and I am mortified at what I see. Not just on the outside, but when I really look at who I have become - I am shocked. I have always been the happy girl, the silly girl, the energetic girl and maybe even the pretty girl. Now I am the fat friend. I get that I have had 3 kids in 4 years and that hasn't been easy on my body, but seriously what the hell kind of excuse is that? People have kids every day. And the happy moms are the moms who have the energy to keep up with their kids! I LOVE my kids in the biggest way you will ever imagine, and I know all too well how horrifying it is to lose your mom at 17. My mom died because she had lung cancer from years of smoking, but she was also overweight, which didn't make the battle any easier. I have been contemplating getting weight loss surgery, but is that really what I want? Do I really want to never be able to indulge again, or drink with my meal? I don't think so. I gained this weight on my own, now God give me the strength to lose it on my own. I joined the gym on Friday Feb. 28, and my workout regimen began Sunday March 1st I started the Couch to 5K adventure. Even at my healthiest, I was not a runner. But I cannot tell you how peaceful I am finding those 30 minute runs (Though admittedly, I have wanted to quit and say fuck it I'll just stay fat!) Since Sunday, I have burned roughly 1800 calories from working out. It's not a ton, but it's 1800 more than I burned the 3 days prior to that. So bare with me. I took a "Before" pic, but dont think I'm posting it just yet. I want a 4th and maybe 5th child. Join me on my journey to lose 60lb before I will try to conceive again. Then stay with me as I run my way through pregnancy. I've had 3 relatively easy natural births...I can only imagine how much easier they will be when I am fit!